Belief

This year thus far has been rather tumultuous. I started off the year overseas with the vague plan of coming home, finding a job and figuring out my next "move". In betweeen I somehow found myself making a last minute decision to enrol in a postgrad marketing course (which has actually been rather enlightening) and in an uncertain long distance relationship. I found out the hard way that long distance things are inevitably difficult and, in 90 per cent of circumstances and in my own personal situation, are not meant to work out. Hence, I'll be staying home for Easter.

In good news and signs that perhaps things are finally going my way, I've got a job lined up and am feeling relatively calm. Of course there is still anxiety/fear/apprehension about being in a full-time job that does in no way guarantee five years of stability. But I don't really want that. I still want to travel, to move out of here, to work overseas, to give back to society...

When I talk to people who have finished uni and then gone on to work, there is still that lingering sense of "Did I choose correctly?" or "Is this really what I want to do?". I haven't even begun my job yet, and I still wonder about both of those questions. When I first started uni, I would've been shocked if I thought I would still have doubts when I graduated. The reality is that you can never be sure about anything, you just have to take things as they come.

I went to the West Coast Blues and Roots Festival on the weekend and saw my favourite musician John Mayer in concert for the second time. Although he played a rather short set and I spent a lot of the time angling my head so that I could see in the shoulder-to-shoulder crowd, it was amazing. The vibe was great, Mayer seemed relaxed and happy to be performing in Australia, I didn't see Jessica Simpson but that's no loss. I guess it can all be summed up in the last line of Gravity:

"Just keep me where the light is."